It took me a long time to be okay with with even discussing 9-11 and the two days after. There isn’t really much to talk about anymore that isn’t deeply political, so here it goes.
I miss America, or rather…I miss the America I don’t see happening. I miss the days when our country was not run by lobbyists on Capital Hill. I miss the days when guys like Rumsfeld and Cheney would have been tried for treason. I miss the days when we cared about education and our environment. When we didn’t start wars we could never win and when we didn’t allow small groups of people to define our political arena.
I miss the separation of church & state, I miss the idea that even though it said “all men” that the founding father’s truly mean “all humans”. I miss the days when the idea that a person should be able to put in a hard days work and live a good life. That debtors were not property who could be threatened, that minorities were not to be fears, but embraced. I miss the days when the police existed to “Protect & Serve” not buy the latest Army hand off tanks they don’t need so that they can ride around and harass whatever minority of choice their, often WASPy, community leaders hate. I miss the days when poorly-educated, over-worked and under-paid people could not simply buy an assault rifle. I miss the days when “scientific consensus” was actually revered and outliers were ostracized for their willful abandonment of the very basic principles of science. I miss the idea that war should be avoided unless absolutely necessary and not seen as a chance to grow the economy. I miss the idea that taxes were a patriotic duty and that they should be high enough to fund this country properly. I miss the idea that companies could not be trusted to be socially responsible and were regulated in such a fashion.
I miss a country I have never known…and I fear my nieces and nephews will never know.
I fear that they will continue to grow up in a country that find the profits of corporations more important than an educated voting populace. I fear they will grow up in a country where local police departments will be allowed to continue acting like militias. I fear they will grow up in a country where any wackjob can go out and buy a rifle that can kill a roomful of people in under thirty seconds. I fear they will grow up in a country where the worst of the “old money” continue to run this country because they are not good for anything else. I fear they will grow up in a country with crumbling infrastructure. I fear my nieces will continue to grow-up in a country that treats them and their bodies as if they a pawns to continue populating a rapidly over populating planet. I fear my nephews will continue to live in a world where they are told that girls owe them their kindness and their bodies. I fear they will continue to grow in a world where the idea that someone can remove consent even after the clothes has come off is somehow wrong. I fear they will continue to grow in a world where they are unable to learn the fundamentals of scientific process without being hindered by the religious beliefs of a few. I fear they will grow up in a country that values the bottom lines of corporations over taking care of veterans and ensuring their citizens can eat.
I fear they will never know the country I hope for, my friends died for and the principals of doing the right thing, taking care of others, tolerating difference in other, the value of knowledge and being a good person.
I’m afraid that nothing will change and all those lost on 9-11 and who are suffering from the fall-out of the rescue/recovery efforts and the war that followed.
I am sad that we refuse to learn and that my voice means so little.